It's been pretty tough the last couple of weeks.
I don't really know where to begin and this isn't the kind of notes I'd normally keep cos god knows I haven't been very good at posting regularly. Yet, it's not the kinda of stuff that I'd like the world to see.
But writing it feels good. .. a sense of liberation which i can't quite describe.
Settling into married life hasn't been the easiest. Well, it's been tough. There's alot of adjustments to be made .. for myself, and my hubby as well. Who said getting married was a bed of roses!!>!>!>@>@@???
I'm so torn and trapped.
FRIENDS that you thought you had... less there for you..
FAMILY that you thought you could count on.... feels like an outsider...
and the LOVE that you married to... no longer thinks you're worth the time of the day...
:) ....So how?
Well, life goes on.. that's the only sure thing. The sun rises and sets everyday, even if I wish for it not to.
What's next???
A few options which I've discussed with my only S.
- Wake early to exercise, at least on EVERY weekday.
- Do some charity work every week regardless how little time committed to it.
- Think positive and loving thoughts about everything and everyone I encounter, despite their actions or emotions towards me.
- ... let's not let the list progress to the point of fantasy land!!
No comments:
Post a Comment